Monday, December 31, 2001
It's too bad, it's too bad, too late, so wrong...
Yay! I got a livejournal account thingy ^_^. It's not as pretty as this blog, but it's still kind of easier to update and whatnot. Woot! Anyway, I'm gonna save my pita, for more important long ranty things, because it's kind of hard to log into sometimes, and it's well suited for long ranty things. I'll use my livejournal for spam. SPAM. Ah, goodness. Go visit my livejournal!
Just one more sane mind slowly turned to mush at 10:22 a.m..
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Wednesday, December 26, 2001
I. fekking. hate. this. holiday.
Grr. I'm hating the last couple days. I go around and read what everybody else got for x-mas, but what did I get? Clothes. Lots of clothes. Ugly sweaters with shoulder pads, sweatshirts with weird stuff on them. Socks. Looooots of socks. Granted, some of them are rather cute, like the ones with ducks on them from mom, but I didn't want them. About the only cool things I got were the sewing machine from my mom/aunts and a *nice* black peacoat. And that's it. Yep. Well, except for the presents from my friends, of which I've only recieved Nissa's because she was on vacation. Her present rocked ^_^. She got me a gift basket with lots of stuff in it :)...and a gift card to suncoast ^-^. Knowing all my other friends, I'm gonna love their presents to death too ^______^. I love all my friends, they're soooo awesome. I couldn't ask for a better bunch of weirdos to take care of me :). I'm trying really hard to get cool stuff for everybody too, but it's hard! Grr >_<. I just don't feel like giving M3AT0R and Lindsmor and Flumpy a pretty picture is enough for X-mas! ;_; I'm gonna make everybody teddy bears...Or at least most of everybody. That's like...6 or so bears, and I hope I can sew that much. Grr, I'll probably have to do it today, too, since I think I'm running out of time ^^;;. Rin-chan's all shopped for, and Nissa maybe too. I'm altering some pants for Chi, and I got the first pair done, but the second one I'm allowed to go crazy on, but I haven't started those yet. After lunch, I guess. See, she wants 'em lengthened, so I'm gonna sew on a strip of scrap fabric with some beads attached around the top, then add a strip of denim around the bottom, but the denim/fabric won't match for both legs so it'll look neat and weird ^-^. Then she wants patches all over it, so I'm kind of using a Peter Gabriel album as a reference ^^;;. It's an old record that dad has laying around, but his turntable doesn't work any more, soooo...Oh well. Yeah, after that she wants me to draw stuff on it ^^;;. Chi's weird, but hey, that's a pretty cool X-mas present :). Dad didn't have any time/money to shop for me for x-mas, and vice versa on this end, so we agreed to go out during the break sometime and shop together, like a second x-mas, because his next job won't come up till after the first. Oh well, I was disappointed, cuz I can count on my dad for cool toys every year, but I'll deal ^_^.
Just one more sane mind slowly turned to mush at 11:41 a.m..
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Sunday, December 23, 2001
I found religion in the greeting card isle, and now I know hallmark was right...
You know, since my mom got cancer, everyone says I've been handling it really well, and I think I am too, but there's one side-effect. I can. not. stand. whining. Anymore, whining pretty much constitutes as anyone's problems other than mine. Well, that is unless a family member is dying, in which case I would listen and probably care, but other than that, it's really hard. Damn. It would figure that the one side effect of having to go through all this is what previously made being around most people tolerable. I'm feeling kind of cynical today.
On a lighter much much happier note, I saw Lord of the Rings last night. It kicked so much ass that I can only hope to go see again many many times. The deep love I now harbor for the ittle bitty hobbit Frodo...woah, words don't come close. I just wanna take the poor dear home and feed him soup. Soup from a can, but the really good kind. Or maybe the kind with the little noodle stars in it. I mean...Frodo, awww. Just...awwww. The thing between him and the kind of pudgy Sam hobbit guy...awww. Through the whole thing I was thinking "brotherly love or not, that's some deep stuff, yo." Yep, the yo was on that thought and everything. The whole movie...just blew me away. I wish I had the patience to read the books, or at least now I'll attempt to. Geez, so much of it scared the crap out of me. It was really really intense. Today in the news paper I read a great review for it where they praised the movie for not just concentrating on making a faithful retelling of the book(s), but putting actual passion into it, and taking a chance a bit that maybe it *wouldn't* please everyone, but at least it'd be a damn good film. Unfortunately, that's where Harry Potter fell short, for both me and the critic who reviewed both movies. HP just lacked...intensity. It just moved along and kept going, retelling the book as best it could. I wouldn't have even worried about whether it was faithful to the book, but more if it just made a good movie. I think that was really lost...
Just one more sane mind slowly turned to mush at 11:55 p.m..
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Saturday, December 22, 2001
Fallin' in this vertigo...
I'm really hating this kiss doll I'm working on >_<. There's this strange sense of disappointment that goes along with dropping work on a doll. Like, it's a happy time but I feel like I wanna cry ^^;;. I'm not gonna do that to this doll, Jaylee, the one who adorns the front of my homepage, but I wish I could. She won't be out for awhile because she's part of a bigger collab project thingy, but if that takes too long, I'll put her out on my site too. All she needs now is skirts, then accessories and shoes. Dangit. Oh well, it'll be quick and painful ^^;;. I know what I'm getting everyone for X-mas finally, but since Chi and Nissa are gonna be out of town, I can do all my shopping after the holidays! Yay! Mom and my aunts got me a sewing machine for Christmas ^-^. Yay, I got to open it this morning so I can use it to make a lot of my presents for everybody :). Mom's out of the hospital now, and I guess it isn't that bad. I kind of wish I could have had at least another week to hang with my dad, but it's a little easier having my mom to do all the work ^^;;. I've been talking to the counselor lady at school, mostly because Dad thought it was a good idea, and she's really nice ^-^. She says I'm the most emotionally adjusted teenager she's ever met :). I've talked to her quite a bit, if only because she's so nice and understanding, and I feel obligated to keep her posted on my mom and how I feel about everything :). Thanks to the people who emailed to cheer me up ^-^.
Just one more sane mind slowly turned to mush at 06:20 p.m..
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Tuesday, December 18, 2001
When the sun sets over cherry blossom skies and the twilight fills the air..
Woot! My mom's getting better, and the stress is more or less gone. FYI, my parents are in the process of getting a divorce, so for the past week my dad's been here taking care of me ^-^. I love my dad, I really really do. He cares so much about me, and it may sound harsh, but my mom is a very self-centered person. You'd have to know her, though, to understand why the sheer volume of clothing in her closet is not the only reason this is true >_<. She wants to get out of the hospital and come home..to our house. Damnit. That's not what *I* want >_<. I do NOT want to sit and play nurse with school and X-mas. She's already put us into debt $12,000 from her credit cards alone (personal note: never own a credit card. Ever.) and here dad and I have to scrap to pay for Christmas AND take care of her, plus she's probably going to want him to leave and go back to his apartment, so it'll all be me and my decrepit mother trying to enjoy this freaking holiday. I love venting. By the way, I found a very interesting new band. Blackmore's Night, they play kind of celtic-ish music, but with more variety. I'm really diggin' on Benzai-ten, a really pretty oriental sounding song ^-^.
I took this test thingy at colorgenics.com, which is mostly a way to get you to call their stupid hotline, but the test was pretty accurate ^_^;;.
You don't need anxiety and problems. All you really seek is a conflict free environment which can offer peace and mental security. You don't like the idea of being alone and whatever the reason.. at this time of your life you feel as if you are being "left out". What you really need is perhaps some "tender loving care"...
You enjoy taking part in anything that may constitute fun and excitement. You need to be stimulated and need to feel that "Life is worth living" and you are awaiting that stimulation and you don't particularly care where it comes from
At times one is burdened with more than ones fair share of problems .. and this would appear to be your situation at present. But you are adamant-you know what you wish to achieve- ...and by giving a little...and taking a little..you may well find that the realization of your dreams could well become a reality
You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.
You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion ... In fact you just don't want to be involved in any arguments of any shape or form ... All you want is for "them" to get on with it - and to leave you alone..
Just one more sane mind slowly turned to mush at 05:03 p.m..
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Tuesday, December 11, 2001
in mother's eyes...
Crap. My mother's in the hospital with double pneumonia, which will take about a week to get rid of, and on top of that she has cancer in her voicebox and throat. This...woah, is a total blow for me. My mother, after having all this done, will probably never speak in her real voice again. It'll be some fake voice provided by some fake voicebox. I'm not really sure how I feel about it either. It seems kind of silly, but I've never really been one to...exist in the future. I live in the now, in what's going on right NOW. It's difficult sitting here listening to some guy talking about something that'll happen two months, four months, six months down the road. It's hard listening to things that MIGHT save the voice she has, it's hard listening about what'll happen next week. Everything's been a big blow to my insides. I've got all this crazy nervous energy, and I've been running around cleaning up the house because mom's not there to do it. I'm also kind of mad at my mom's sisters. They're all up here now, swarming around her, and I don't think much of it makes her feel any better. They sit there and tell her not to be so afraid of the "silly" fake voicebox, and that she only has a few days to get better so she can come home. WTF? She nearly cried when they told her about her voicebox. My mom loves her voice, and I could tell it was one of those things where you have to put it nicely and try not to worry her too much with it. And here my aunt was calling us callous and uncaring yesterday. Did it occur to her that *maybe* I can read my mother like a hawk? *Maybe* her opinion on how I should be reacting isn't the only way? Maybe I'm just trying to cheer mom up, so at least when I'm there I won't make her miserable. Geez, I have soooo much stress running through my poor little body. I want stuff to be normal and happy again....
Just one more sane mind slowly turned to mush at 08:07 p.m..
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Tuesday, December 4, 2001
hold me like a child in your arms.
I had a lot to talk about, but it seems that now that my internet was down for the past couple days, I don't really care anymore. Damnit, I wish my setting's wouldn't have been changed >_<. I don't LIKE typing in Courier. Grr. All right, I've messed with my settings enough, I think it's okay now. They made me run some stupid program to change my settings to something more "acceptable" so I could get on the internet again, which I would've done manually if their instructions had worked. Oh, I can't get email now. Go figure. Their stupid network won't let me connect to my email. Damnit. Yeah, so..nobody email me. It's been a crappy day >_<.
Just one more sane mind slowly turned to mush at 04:56 p.m..
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Saturday, November 24, 2001
It's taken me a long time, but I am on your side...
D.A.M.N. Geeez, it took forever to make the html for this sucker look okay on pitas ^^;;. The format of the entries kept screwing with the format of the html and just...grr! not fair >_<. Okay, but it's working now. Yay. The picture is Umi from Katteni Kaizou, a veeeery kickass shonen manga (Chitan stuffing his underwear full of acorns is damn scary...yes it is). This is my first time using someone else's art to make a layout O_o. I feel dirty XD. I don't really have anything new to say..except maybe "ow, I have a headache! >_<". I'm sick! Well, we all knew that, but more in the full of germs (the evil kind, not the ones you need ^-^). I have a cold and an infection in the canal of my right ear O_o. Fun fact, Shawn has very bad ears. Not in the same way one might have a bad dog or a bad grade on a test, but more in the sense that they just suck. I'm sensitive to loud noises, they get plugged up in water *really* easy (I could never be on the swim team, I'd go deaf before the season ended ^^;;), and I have small ear tubes which for some reason means I get ear infections at the drop of a hat >_<. Joy. Oh well, I think it's getting better. I stayed home on Monday, went to school Tuesday for a Chem test, and stayed home for the half day Wednesday. I'm sickly! Yay! Oh yeah, on top of the whole new layout thing, I added some adoption things ^_^. The first one's an anti-twinky I altered to kind of look like me (the eyes look weird..I have weird eyes but they don't look evil O_O). I put a dot on the forehead because I have a small birthmark there that kind of looks like a pimple (joy.). The other one is Love-chan, also swiped from Kimiki ^_^. It represents gay and lesbian rights...you'd have to read it, Kimiki explains it better ^^;;. Yay, so that's cool. I'm gonna go work on ye olde kiss doll now. Yar.
Just one more sane mind slowly turned to mush at 09:52 p.m..
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Saturday, November 24, 2001
Windows NT crashed. I am the Blue Screen of Death. No one hears your screams.
Yeeeah, I meant to post sometime last week, but pitas ate my entry and I haven't felt up to it until now ^^;;. Yeah, so anyway, my Japanese class went to the Japanese mall in Arlington Heights last Friday, and it was fun. I bought three manga (Chobits #3, Katteni Kaizou #9 and something called Get Backers #13, plus a Trigun wallscroll and lots of candy ^_^). Chobits is awesome, obviously. The art is *gorgeous*. Katteni Kaizou is reeeeeally bizarre, but the art is still really amazing. After this post I think I'll make a new layout for this blog using some of the pictures from it, they're just great ^_^. Get Backers...is weird. I guess I'd understand it if I actually read it from the beginning, but I bought the latest one they had out because the cover had snuggly looking boys on it ^-^. After the mall we went to eat at a Japanese restaurant, and I had the Oyako Donburi, which I am lead to believe after eating it that Satan himself made it and thus is using it to bring me to the darkside. Darn you Satan and your food from hell. If I never eat Oyako Donburi again it'll be too soon. There was a Karaoke setup in the back, so Mike and Kevin (*shudder* I dislike him muchly) go back and sing. Easy enough. They start with Can't Get No Satisfaction, but the background for the video that played for it (there's a video that's played with the words at the bottom written in Katakana and English ^_^) was filmed during a Gay Pride parade O_o. It started with a biker guy in leather, and the first chorus ("I can't get no sat-is-fac-tion") was to the background of a lesbian's ass in a thong O_o. Yeeeaaaah. So, that was all-in-all pretty farking odd. Yay! ^_^ My new kiss doll's coming along reeeeeeally well. Dangit, I need a new layout for my webpage too >_<. Maybe I'll get to that today ^^;;. Okay, I'm gonna see if I can make a new layout for this sucker first. Over and out! ("Yes SIR!") ^_^V
Just one more sane mind slowly turned to mush at 03:05 p.m..
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Sunday, November 11, 2001
If we don't start being happy now, then when..
Lalala...Mom's hoggin' the bathroom and I need to go take a bath before I go to sleep, so I figured I'd post something ^_^. I went to breakfast today with dad ^^...well, lunch. I paid! Found a 20 on the street about a week ago, so I figured I'd put it to good use. For some reason I'm more willing to spend money I've found than money I've earned. Sooo, we went to the Cracker Barrel and I had the chicken 'n dumplings ^-^. Tastiness XD. Yeah, so, that was neat. Then we drove in the country on the way home. Hm...I had more important things to say until mom walked into the room and I forgot them. Spell Bowl went to state yesterday, but we didn't win, but that's okay cuz it was hella fun ^_^. Just...well, it was a good way to spend a weekend. I'm a sucker for car/bus trips anyway. I don't know why, I think there's something very calming about it, plus it gives me a new perspective on how other people live their lives. I love stuff like that, seeing other cities, other houses, different worlds. Don't know why, I've just been like that since I was little. Unfortunately, my MP3 player eats batteries while it's off as well, so the batteries I put in it last weekend were dead when I tried to reload some new songs into it before the trip. I was quite pissed to say the least. Yeah, so I lived a few days without music ^^;;. It was still fun, and I stayed in the nicest hotel of my life thus far. It had a hair dryer in the bathroom and an iron and ironing board in the closet. Tre cool. I went around ironing everyone's clothes...I ironed the guy's pants and shirts ^^;;. I'm a freak, but I enjoy ironing. It makes me feel domestic, but not in the stupid housewife way, more in the "look, I'm not useless!" sort of way. Go iron something without burning it and you'll know what I mean. Yeah, so last night I got a big book of unedited Grimm's fairy tales. I haven't read much of it, cuz the writing in it really irks me for some reason. The stories have plots, but they're all over sooooo quickly that the writing is just very choppy. That's probably how it was originally. In the original Frog Prince, the princess threw him against a wall when he was in her bedroom and he turned into a prince and they were wed O_o. Yeah, *that's* how I wanna show my love for a guy. Ya know, I don't think there's much love in me O_o. It's strange, but I've never been an affectionate person, and I've never really looked for it from other people. I think the reason I've never dated, nor really had any want to, is because I've never connected to people on that hold me/kiss me/cuddly level. NEVER. I've just...nope, doesn't happen. So much love in my life comes from my parents, and I guess there's not a lot left for everyone else. I've been attracted to people, guys and girls (it's the artist in me, I admit to finding girls attractive. Usually nothing more than "Oh she has nice hair" or "Gee I wish I could have her legs" but none the less..) but that's normal. I suppose if I *were* to date someone, it'd just have to be someone I could connect to on a more intellectual level. They'd have to be pretty smart, not overly..um, sexual? I guess (as in, no hitting on me, please...), VERY openminded, have lots of interests, be laid back but still be fun and energetic, and rather spiritual. I know time and time again I rant and rave about religion and God. It's not that I'm anti-relgion, but I'm pro..self-religion? I don't know, I was just more or less raised in a family that lets you decide where you want to fall in the spiritual world, and anything goes. I'm more spiritually connected to myself than God or a higher power. I know what makes me happy, I realize the difference between reality and spirituality, and I can differenciate between what is TRULY wrong and what is just percieved that way by others. I.e. I create my own sense of right and wrong. It's how I was raised, it's the people I was raised around. Just...me. I suppose that's why I've never had much reliance on God in my life, I sort of take that role of guiding and teaching myself upon myself rather than the Bible or God. It's not that I don't need guidance on occasion, but I consider learning from the mistakes and triumphs of others and myself to be my guidance, and I suppose in a way that's God in my life. My Dad once told me he believed that God was all of us, not a higher power, and salvation comes from inside ourselves from trying to find a life that makes us truly happy. That's the sort of environment I've lived in my whole life, that's why my dad got a divorce from my mom, and that's why I'm not angry about the whole situation ^_^. He needs it, I need it, mom needs it. Life has to go on, and so long as we find happiness, that's all that matters.
Just one more sane mind slowly turned to mush at 08:49 p.m..
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Thursday, November 8, 2001
I can tell you're feelin' better...
I stayed home sick yesterday. I was up all night before worrying about a speech I had to give for English, and just sorta decided it wouldn't be a good day and stayed home ^_^. I think some weird part of me enjoys making up the homework, though. It's like saying "Ha ha, I CAN learn and get my homework done...without even being there!" Yeah, that's lame, but who cares. My DAMN mp3 player crapped out on my again. I swear, I put fresh batteries in it last weekend, and it ate. them. up. It wasn't even ON, how are the batteries dead? What *really* sucks is that spell bowl is going down to state tomorrow, and I *really* wanted to take it along to have something to listen to without mooching nissa's cd player off of her ;_;. Crap, I want batteries! My computer was getting all pissy at me for trying to load stuff to it with the batteries mostly dead ^^;;. Stupid thing, nothing's gone right today >_<. Yar, oh well, I'm finally packed after getting pissed off at my mom for moving all my stuff around. I swear, *swear*, I had a duffel bag in my closet..in fact, not just one but more like three. They aren't there. I found one hung up in her closet. Ya know what? She was getting all "Why are you yelling at me, I didn't do anything. It was your father! Call him, I bet he took them. I feel like you're always attacking me like everything's my fault!" What's funny is it IS always her fault. My parent's are separated, FYI, so she automatically assumes it's dad's fault, where as I automatically assume it's her fault..which it mostly is. Contrary to her opinion, I DO get mad at dad, but I get mad at her more often. She's just...very irritating sometimes. I love my mom, but I wish she'd get her head on straight sometimes >_<. Grr. Everyone check out Dar Williams, a very awesome singer lady ^_^.
Just one more sane mind slowly turned to mush at 08:48 p.m..
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Sunday, November 4, 2001
two posts in one hour...wow.
ow, my toe is bleeding. Okay, for the longest time, my big toe on my right foot has hurt in this one spot whenever I touched it. It was painful, and I thought it had something to do with my toenail. Well, it didn't. I was clipping my toenail, and discovered where the hurt was coming from, so I clipped off this bit of skin over the hurting area (I have thick skin on my toes, I couldn't feel it ^^), and there's this little..hurting..dot. Just one dot. So I poked around in it with a pin, and now I'm putting some peroxide on it, then I'll dive into the neosporin and bandaids. Yay. I guess it must be from a really old splinter or something O_o. Read the post below still, cuz it's still valid a half out later. Have to sleep soon.
Just one more sane mind slowly turned to mush at 10:17 p.m..
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Sunday, November 4, 2001
So here's your holiday, I hope you enjoy it this time.
Lalala...um, I don't post very often do I? ^^;; I mean well, honest. I really really should update my webpage, change the layout, get rid of the stupid frames. Frames and I never got along well anyways. I think I'm gonna try creating a new drawing style to use along with my anime one. I mean, it's cool being able to draw anime, but there should be other stuff too. I drew a neat picture last night of a lady sitting on a Greek column or something. Neat. It kind of had a general disregard for proportion and anatomy and detail. Nice. I was kind of disappointed that it didn't take longer to draw, though, and I think it still relied too heavily on being something "pretty" as apposed to just...being. Oh well, I'll keep working ^_^. Hm, what else...I'm supposed to be making a speech for lit. I was gonna do how the mass media is destroying individualism in society, but she wanted me to narrow my focus on something closer to home. Instead I'm gonna write one up about why we deserve more holidays for school, especially because in my area we don't get a lot of holidays off, which blows. Oh well, I'll worry about that tomorrow since it's not due til Wednesday.
Okay, I'm gonna start on a new KiSS doll. Jaylee, the one I'm working on now, is supposed to be for a big collab set, which I get the feeling I'm probably holding up ^^;;. Well, I'll finish her, because I AM pretty proud of the art quality. Originally I was gonna submit her for the collab set and then re-release her with cooler effects and spiffy stuff like that. I'm thinking that I'll re-release her still, so she'll be a full set, and maybe add a few more neato effects, but that's it. I don't think I'll make a big production of it right now. Anyway, I have high hopes for my next kiss doll idea. It's a guy doll this time, and much in the same way as my Duo doll, I plan on him having lots of hair changes. Unfortunately, work on Duo is at a stand still. It's *really* not going anywhere. If anyone with some previous kiss doll experience wants to finish some clothes for him, get ahold of me. Now, it may sound..snobbish, but I really am looking for a pretty good artist for this. The base doll is easy enough that it wouldn't be that hard, but..well, I need someone who could imitate what I already have done for him, which isn't much, but still. Gotta keep with the style. Also some familiarity with Gundam Wing would be nice. Okay, well, back to my new kiss doll. The base doll for it, frankly, it pretty hot ^_^. Well..to me at least. I haven't scanned and traced it yet, but soon! Yayness ^_^. I figure I'm pretty open to what I wanna do clotheswise too, because he isn't a set character. There probably won't be any anime character clothes in there, though, because I really, really don't like making clothes from series. That's where I ran into problems with Duo. I got bored with the lack of creativity for me. Well, this'll be different. Lots of effects in plan. I was thinking of having a wardrobe in the set where all the clothes are hanging up in it, and then the turn into normal clothes when you click 'em, then hang up again with they touch the wardrobe (aka closet thing). I also wanna have neat animal species things ^_^. Like ears and tails, just cuz I really liked Rick 'n Mel's new doll Rafferty (I hope that's how it's spelled ^^;;) and I wanted to add a monkey boy thing in honor of it XD. The rock lobster thing...ah, that was spiffy. Yeah, well, it's also gonna be pretty focused on the at-mo-sphere around it too. I was thinking a big room, like a loft apartment, with windows lining all the walls behind the doll, and with light coming in so you could see the light on the floor. I was thinking about it, and that really wouldn't be that hard, which is great. Oh, I was also thinking things could just...appear in the windows from time to time ^-^ *coughgodzillacough*. Yeah, so I hope it'll be done..whenever XD. Don't expect this baby for a LONG time. Like, uberlong. It's...gonna take awhile. Luckily the pose is pretty easy, so I shouldn't have TOO many problems. Blarg.
Just one more sane mind slowly turned to mush at 09:29 p.m..
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Sunday, October 28, 2001
never lick frogs.
blarg. I went to rin-chan's house for a few hours. She's gotten a lot farther in chrono cross than I have in...a year ^^;;. Hm..I was playing the sims today, and I have this hippie couple (a male and female for once! woah, I usually go for the guys&guys ^_^). Okay, so they're madly in love and have this pretty cool house (it could've been better, but I didn't feel like it...I make some pretty kick ass sims houses, yes I do ^_^), so they eventually had a kid. Okay, nothing TOO strange..Well, the kid turns out to be a girl, which I named something to the effect of FunkmastahomieGhipcat. She shows up and is...just way affectionate O_o. The other sims don't really want much to do with her ^_^. Okay, so then they have another kid, named something like HomieGfunkmastafroglickamofo. I had it on fast forward, so I didn't notice that the kid was crying and child's services took it away ^^;;. Oh! And before that, one of the neighbors came over and caught on fire. Heehee, stupid neighbor. I had the lady of the house play rock-paper-scissors with death to bring the man back to life...even though she hated his guts and liked to tease him a lot ^_^. I'm awaiting for my sims to get married now, but they won't, which is depressing. Anyway, when my first kid turned into an actual child (not a baby), her character head icon thingy in the life mode bar is an upsidedown head of some creepy-ass looking woman O_o. I took a screenshot of that, so I'll have to put it up sometime...not that anyone would CARE, but I thought it was pretty trippy. Nothing else interesting happened to me today...Oh yeah! The Beast showed up on X-men Evolution ^_^. He's so sweet! I lurve the Beast, I liked him in the first animated version of the show too :). I've never actually read the X-men comics, just watched the cartoons ^^;;. American comics kind of annoy me, honestly. The story lines are all kind of weird, and because there are so many writers and artists, it's hard to get a sense of continuity. Like, I couldn't pick up an issue of the X-men now and have a clue what's going on. And they're so WORDY. I mean, the whole point behind comics is that you can SHOW what's happening, and you don't HAVE to explain *everything.* Of course, there's a lot of American comic fans that aren't fond of manga too. I've heard it's because of the overdone story lines or the drama or something, but I'd accuse a lot of American comics of that same problem ^_^. I think Johnny the Homicidal Maniac is an exception, though. It's original and creative, written AND drawn by the same guy, and doesn't get worn out or tired or go off in directions it doesn't need to go. Good stuff. WEIRD stuff. Yay. Oh, I also was gonna mention that for the life of me, I have a hard time figuring out where people are getting here from. I mean, I have that tracker down there, but a lot of the referring pages...don't have anything to do with my blog O_o. Or there's no link to my blog...anywhere! It's weird, really weird. But the search engine things are great ^-^. Most of 'em are yaoi or slash searches. I didn't know there were so many pervy bunnies like me running around out there! That's great :). One last thing, I'd like to put a plug in for Rick Cramer cuz he linked my page as one of his faves ^-^. That makes me happy, cuz I love his dolls. All those guy dolls! Drool *lol*. I like his style, it's really neat ^_^. I feel like a dork today ^^;;. I probably should've practiced tonight...darn.
Just one more sane mind slowly turned to mush at 08:42 p.m..
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Friday, October 26, 2001
Our three weapons are fear, surprise, ruthless efficiency, and an almost fanatical devotion to the pope...
Blarg. I was eating some watermelon sour patch kids. Darn, those are good. Too bad I finished 'em off ;_;. I had a day off of school today...so I sat around and did nothing! Bwahahahaha! I was kind of hoping someone would call and say "Hey, wanna come over and watch Invader Zim?" but no one did. That's kind of sad. I wanted to go to rin-chan's house today, but seeing as I didn't even get bathed and dressed until around 1 o'clock, I figured I might as well wait til tomorrow. I did finish a bit more on my kiss doll today though. She's looking pretty good so far, even though I was worried about the clothes at first because she has her arms going across her chest, thus making the clothes look a little weird. Oh well, it's turning out okay so far. What else was I gonna add? Hm, I wanna update this weekend. Maybe I will, even though I left most of my pictures at school. I guess if nothing else I can change the colors and get rid of the frames cuz they're annoying me. Grr. I really like the FTP program I use. It's called coffeecup free ftp, and it works really well. Really. Well, see, it's because I actually understand how to use it, which as always good ^_^. While I'm jumping from topic to topic, I'd like to take a moment to talk about my shirt. Yes, my shirt. It's blue, with the tags all written in french and english (and consequently it has one of the longest washing care labels EVER, French, Spanish AND English. Wow.) and it has this cool embroidery around the bottom with this neat velvety ribbon and little beads. I bought it for 10 bucks at TJMaxx ^_____^. It's such a cute shirt, but kind of baggy and the sleeves are just a hair too long, but it only adds to the...cuteness.
Okay, time for a new paragraph, it gets difficult reading all of that crammed into one paragraph. My printer's running out of color ink ;_;. Damn. I've had my printer for...four years now and never once replaced the color ribbon, only the black and white one ^^;;. It makes me a little sad, like it's the end of an era. An ERA! Poor color ribbon thing. I wanna see On the Line, the movie with Lance and Joey of Nsync :). I know, I'm a dork, and I shouldn't want to see a movie for teenies, but...damn, it has Joey! ;_; Some people might wanna know where in the world this...acceptance of boybands comes from..as in, why don't I hate them? Well, see, after being into slash/yaoi/shonen ai fanfiction since forever, I've kinda gone beyond the realm of JUST anime fiction, out into Harry Potter, boybands, um...other things I can't remember >_<. Well, yeah, so after I finally was forced to learn all the names of BSB and Nsync so I would be able to grasp who in the world the people in these fanfics WERE, I realized that they weren't evil, but in fact pretty cute, so I ended up cheering for the underdogs as always, and latched myself onto Joey, Chris, and Howie...in that order. And Kevin. Damn him and his..hair. See, I have perfectly good reasons! Sort of...I don't know, despite JC and his oh-so "artistic soul" thing, they still sing pretty awful songs ^^;;. And Space Cowboy? Dear Jeebus, what in the world? Not to mention Digital Getdown, cuz that's just...raunchy. Blarg, talk about euphemisms. What else was I gonna talk about? Hm...I need to buy some blank cds so I can burn stuff again. I need to burn Nissa all the gravitation episodes I have so she can watch 'em, and I need to burn somethin' for rin-chan, but I forgot what it was. Hm. And other stuff, lots of other stuff too. It's too bad though, cuz the volume on my stereo is on crack. If you try and move it just a little, it'll get really loud and..hurt things or something. Yep. So, I need a new stereo...*sniff* I don't wanna! I love my baby ;_;. I like Everything But the Girl. That's a really long name for a band, too. You know what, they sound like the Eurythmics...however you spell that ^^. I like the Eurythmics too...geez, what was the name of that one song? Gosh dangit, they came out with a new one not long ago too >_<. I also feel I should put in a plug for Trembling Blue Stars. They're good, and soft and pretty and the lead singer man sounds GOOD. And their songs are easy to sing along to ^_^. Also, Rufus Wainright, cuz that man has some damn fine songs...damn fine.
I heart Wil Wheaton, yes I do. He's such a neato guy, I wish people would give him a neat job so I could watch him on tv ^-^. If it weren't for him, I'd have no idea what was going on in this country, because he always puts it in terms I can understand. I was lookin' at his pictures from the stuff he did when he was younger (Stand By Me, Star Trek:The Next Generation, The Girl's Room), and he was such a cute little burrito! (in-joke, go read Johnny the Homicidal Maniac's companion book Squee and you'll understand...Now, damnit! NOW! Grrrr!) He was in Teen Beat, and there was a picture of him with Debbie Gibson! Debbie.Freaking.Gibson. With crazy bad 80's hair and stonewashed jeans. No kidding, it was neat. You know, it makes me wanna watch Star Trek and kick Trekkies ^^;;. Stupid trekkies, rejecting Wil. I heart him, I heart him so much. I hope he gets some really kick-ass acting job and never ever takes his journal off his page, cuz it's really spiffy ^_^. I haven't figured out the appeal yet, though. I guess it's kind of interesting to hear the daily happenings of someone who was on tv, on something as big as star trek. Especially because he's so...grounded! Not weird, not introverted, just...normal! It's neat ^_^. And he has cool music on his winamp playlist, so ya can't beat that XD. Okay, I'm gonna stop typing and just put up my damn "I heart Wil Wheaton" button now ^_^V.
Just one more sane mind slowly turned to mush at 06:44 p.m..
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Thursday, October 25, 2001
"all I know, is you and I are meant to be."
Blarg. What a long day O_o. I should get around to changing this layout soon, I need something less formal...or something. Yeah, I'm gonna work on my main page layout sometime too. I don't like the colors. Eeww. The different shades of brown and red aren't working. I'm gonna make it all brown-tones...happier brown tones, not the colors in this blog. Happy! Yay. Lalala, today was rather frustrating, but it's the end of the grading period so we get a day off tomorrow XD. Yayness. *Unfortunetly* I also had a bunch of homework. Gah, it was awful. I was sitting in study hall, *without my mathbook*, trying really hard to figure out how to do the worksheet we got just from the crappy notes my teacher gave us, and I couldn't do my lit because it was in my locker >_<. Damn, I had NO clue how to do my math homework, and I tried it a bunch of different ways, and finally gave up and started crying. Yeah, I get really worked up easily ^^;;. I wasn't sobbing really loud or anything, but hey, I was frustrated. It's kind of nice to cry in study hall, because even if someone notices, they can't do anything to help because we all have to be quiet, so it's like you're in your own little depressed world ^^;;. Oh well, during sewing I asked my (very very awesome) teacher if I could get my math book because I wasn't in a sewing mood, and she let me. She's cool, she'll let us get away with anything. I finally figured out how to do my math, but it took me a couple hours to finish it.
Okay, I figured I should probably address this problem while I'm on the subject of homework. Some people may be wondering what the hell I was doing getting upset over homework, let alone worrying about it when it's not even due til Monday. Okay, I'm weird. I have a big fear of just forgetting to ever do my homework, so I always do it the day it's assigned, unless it's a big paper. Go figure. I'm weird and obsessive, and I've always been that way. Damn.
My mom's a good cook. She made some cornbread, but it's kind of grainy. Oh well. She won't put honey on it like I like ^^;;. Darn her :P. Lalalala...
Just one more sane mind slowly turned to mush at 05:42 p.m..
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------------------ name:shawn lenore b. age:16 mental age:9,463 b-day:july 5th, 1985 grade:10th location:U.S. sex:feemail occupation:freak favefoods:peaches, pudding (the cheap generic kind from Wendy's!), fajitas, Teddy Grahms, spaghetti, breadsticks from Olive Garden, scrambled eggs, strawberry crepes (sounds snobbish, but they sell 'em at this cheap-mo greek restaurant nearby ^_^), orange juliuses (juliusi?), Jelly Bellies, Jones Soda, cheese sticks from the Burger King on Lincolnway, Cinnabons, tempura, california rolls, Kasugai Gummy XD, Mom's turkey dressing, strawberry jello stuff, watermelon sourpatch kids. likes:anime, harry potter, yaoi/slash/shonen ai, colors, drawing, eating, sleeping, breathing, eating, computer, eating, life, reading, music, eating. dislikes:not sleeping, pervy men. talents:guitar, violin, drawing, being a dork music: JUMP LITTLE CHILDREN! Yeah! whoohoo! Um, lifehouse, joydrop, peach union, andreas johnson, coldplay, jimmy eat world, kotani kinya ^_^, Dar Williams (she.kicks.ass.), Dispatch, Rufus Wainright, Incubus, Puddle of Mudd, Travis, Alien Ant Farm anime:gravitation (squee!), gundam wing, cardcaptor sakura, kodomo no omocha, saber marionette j, Digimon! (yay, tai and yama are squishy..daisuke too ^_^), Trigun, Katteni Kaizou, Chobits. books:harry potter, hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy (yeah baby! floopy mattress!), catch 22, lord of the flies (poor piggy ;_;), to kill a mockingbird ^^;;, The Long Dark Tea Time of the Soul. tv:simpsons, Monty Pyton's Flying Circus, who's line is it anyway, talk soup, INVADER ZIM! yes! "But invaders blood marches through my veins like giant radio-active rubber pants! The pants command me. Do not ignore my veins!" pairings:taixyama, daisukexken, t.k.xdaisuke, jyouxyama^_^(digimon), 1x2, 5x2, 3x4, 1x3(gundam wing), yukixshuuichi ^_^, ryuichixtatsuha(gravitation), h/r, d/h, ron/hermione, p/n, d/s(harry potter), youjixomi, ayaxken, youjixken (weiss kruez) characters:ron, harry, fredngeorge, daisuke, ken, tai, shuuichi, ryuichi (squee!), heeeeeero, youji, omi ^_^, vash. ------------------ blogs I read: katy/alys/kellila/rei/rin-chan/kimiki/evil laugher/peppermintcaz/andy/2 cents/fel/carolyn/kaze/piiko/judy/ vanessie/miay ------------------ links: cheshire old cheshire pitas my host ^_^ boy meets boy megatokyo penny arcade 8-bit theater Real Life Jump Little Children
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